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Ace October 9th, 2018 at 10:59 AM

TLDR: I've launched a GoFundMe and could use your help.

A little over seven years ago, in my eighth month at home waiting for the perfect job to fall out of the sky, something that would fit both my passion and my needs, a job posting went up on this site. I'd been reading MGoBlog since high school; now I was hastily assembling a resumé for a full-time job taking over for two talented and productive part-timers who'd secured full-time sportswriting gigs themselves.

At the time, I was two years removed from being diagnosed with ME/CFS after a protracted quest for answers to odd health problems. My condition hadn't stopped me from graduating school—a much easier task once I knew what I had on board—and launching my own site, for which I wrote on a near-daily basis. I figured writing from home about something I love would make it easy. (I wasn't entirely wrong there.) I had no idea what I was in for; neither did Brian, who only knew me from my work.

In the years since, I've been on the field at Michigan Stadium for the finishes to the 2011 Notre Dame and Ohio State games, covered seven seasons of football in some of the greatest settings in sports, interviewed high school kids who've gone on to become NFL starters, contributed to a report that expedited the exit of a reviled athletic director, had my research and a photograph published in a New York Times bestseller, covered a Hall of Fame coach (he liked my tweets!) and his two Final Four teams, sat down with future NBA first-rounders, and rubbed elbows with Michigan sports and journalism luminaries. I've lived out a childhood dream, one I know full well isn't just mine.

More importantly, I've become part of a true community. Brian created a special place here, not just focused on analyzing the programs we cover but the great impact sports can make on us and we can make on each other. When my health increasingly impacted my ability to work on a reliable schedule, he supported me with both job stability and greater flexibility to mold my work to my capabilities. When recovering from surgery this spring took longer than planned and wiped out my normal summer recovery time, he not only gave me the room to take a paid leave, he assured me I'd be taken care of regardless of the outcome.

I still didn't expect this to be the outcome. My body hasn't bounced back in the way I'd hoped. It's time, at least for now, for me to resign my post and focus on my health.

I can't put into words how much it's meant to work here and how much gratitude I have for the people in this community. I'd especially like to thank the crew here. Working with Brian, Seth, Heiko, Adam, Dave, Eric, Fuller, Patrick, Marc-Gregor, Alex, Bryan, Matt, Ethan, Morris, The_Mathlete, and everyone else who's contributed has been an honor and a pleasure. This is a remarkably talented group of people; they're also now great friends and a critical part of my support system, even though many of us often go months (sometimes years!) without seeing each other in person.

It's not in my nature to ask for help until I'm in dire need. In this case, unfortunately, my needs fit that description.

I'm currently living alone in a townhouse that costs $900/month after my housemates moved out on short notice when I was physically unable to move myself. My plan to continue living here involved considerable financial support from my family, which for reasons I won't get into here I can no longer totally rely upon, and continuing to work. This has all happened rather quickly.

I made a little under $50,000 last year—Brian has taken great care of me—and maintaining something close to that income would allow me to truly relax and do what I need to manage my health. Over the past several years, my annual medical costs have ranged from $10,000 to $30,000—my prescription medications alone nearly match my monthly rent. I need to make yearly trips to Alabama to see my ME/CFS specialist, a world-class doctor in a field with vanishingly few experts. (My doctor is one of a couple of ME/CFS specialists that the head of the Chronic Pain and Fatigue Research Center at U-M will recommend to patients; he does not recommend seeking treatment for ME/CFS at U-M.)

In my current state, work is not an option, and really hasn't been much of one since I had surgery on my gall bladder and esophagus in May. I'm in constant pain, my weight is stuck in a frighteningly low zone of 130-135 pounds (I'm 5'10), I'm sleeping around 12 hours a day and essentially in a state of semi-consciousness for several more, and simple tasks like doing the dishes or even walking down the stairs takes considerable effort. ME/CFS symptoms often follow waves of severity and this is a low point; I'm optimistic rest and less stress will at least stabilize my health to its pre-surgery level and allow me to live a fuller life.

With Brian's blessing and the support of the whole site, I've launched a GoFundMe to cover my living and medical costs for what can hopefully be at least a year off to rest and recover. Anything you can give would be deeply appreciated.

I should add that this is not goodbye. I still plan to be around a bit; I just can't keep up with the day-to-day. At the very least, I'll still be on Twitter—yes, tweeting about Michigan sports—and I'm hoping to make the occasional contribution around here, too.

The outpouring of support since I posted this video on Twitter last night has been nothing short of incredible. While I'm sad to be giving this up, I'm excited for the next chapter in my life, which I plan to involve improved health and a greater presence as a patient advocate. I can't thank you all enough for following along with my journey, and I hope you'll continue to do so.

Comments

turtleboy

October 9th, 2018 at 2:41 PM ^

Not saying this lightly: football season just isn't the same without your snark, your insight, and your silky smooth ska jams. Hurry back, my dude, and keep asking for help when you need it. 

buddhafrog

October 9th, 2018 at 2:55 PM ^

We aren't ranking folks here, but still I want to share that Ace has been my favorite MGoBlogger - you made a direct and unique impact on this site and I am grateful for the work you've done.

Peace.

J.

October 9th, 2018 at 3:46 PM ^

For those of you who had the under on 6 hours from post to goal, congratulations.  $45,062 and counting. :)

Remember today on one of your dark days, Ace.  Your impact is wider than I think you know.

LVaught89

October 9th, 2018 at 4:05 PM ^

Most of us read this site religiously. Thanks for your dedication and passion these past seven years to our collective fandom. Happy to contribute to your recovery. Get well, my friend.

rob f

October 9th, 2018 at 6:56 PM ^

Donation on its way later tonight after I get finished helping my daughter and her hubby finish moving into their first purchased home.  Best to you and your health, Ace!

Don

October 9th, 2018 at 7:45 PM ^

Ace—Not sure what I did equates to a legit "money cannon" but good luck and get better anyhow!

I hope to hell there's a victory over OSU in the future for you—I think it would be therapeutic.

Mongo

October 9th, 2018 at 8:45 PM ^

Donated again.  We need to give Ace peace of mind.  We are at $63K but the MGoBoard and friends needs to get Ace to $100k ... fully funded for rent, living expenses and medication for at least 24 months.  That will ensure he has NO STRESS to get him back to writing full time ... this cushion is CRITICAL for his recovery and we are blessed to be able give that to him.  

Go Blue !!!

Mgthefrenchy

October 9th, 2018 at 8:47 PM ^

Thanks for everything Bro - I am truly grateful for the time we spend together and all the advice, knowledge and help you provided.

I will miss hearing you in the podcast, reading you on the site and of course playing hide and seek from the court to the press box ;) 

FrozeMangoes

October 9th, 2018 at 8:47 PM ^

I deal with a lot of fatigue issues as well.  Not specefic to ME/CFS but I know what it is like to spend several months in bed.  Ironically, your writing and this blog help me through those.  I have been down to 130 lbs, too, as a 6'1" former 215lb D1 athlete that was scary.  I know how scary the low points can be.   Hope the gofundme can help with some of the uncertainty and allow you to rest a little deeper. Take care. 

BuddhaBlue

October 9th, 2018 at 11:22 PM ^

Dragging myself out of lurkerdom to wish you all the best in your recovery, Ace. Have enjoyed your contributions and learned a lot from you and this blog. Over the years you've enabled me to stay in touch with my school's team from many miles, countries and time zones away. Happy to donate and play a small part. 

The GoFundMe is at $69k! 

LabattsBleu

October 9th, 2018 at 11:23 PM ^

done.

Didn't mention it in the previous post following your video, but wanted to give kudos to the whole Mgoblogger teams for helping you out, but especially Brian, as it sounds like he's really been a stand up guy in helping you during your medical issues...

Good Luck Ace! Will be rooting for you.

JWG Wolverine

October 10th, 2018 at 1:41 AM ^

WE LOVE YOU ACE!!!!!
 

In all seriousness though, thank you so much for the incredible work you have done for the MGoCommunity. I don't think I have heard your voice that extensively since the last MGoPodcast you appeared on, and I am amazed by your strength in fighting a disease that I can't even imagine having.

You spoke of how even people you don't even know from this community have impacted your life in incomprehensibly strengthening ways, and I would like to tell you that your amazing writing, analysis, and laughs have given me such a feeling. You have no idea how much your work has made my life just a little bit better.

Here's to the best in your road ahead, and getting well soon is the #1 priority. We've all got your back, and maybe basically evolving into an infrequently-active MGoUser who (more than deservingly) happens to have front page capabilities is actually for the better anyway! We'll now be more than happy and even more appreciative to se your name on here every once in a blue moon, and maybe you can even make a surprise cameo in what will always be YOUR hockey podcast eventually, whenever things do get better and you do feel comfortable.

Thanks again for everything, especially those good tweets you have.

Good luck, God Bless, and Go Blue!

P.S. The Wild Thing Thing is still on though, correct? (lol)

LSA91

October 10th, 2018 at 1:28 PM ^

God bless, Ace - I've really been touched by how open you have been, and have contributed.

On a less important note, are you still booked for the Wild Thing haircut "bet" with Brian, or can we appoint a substitute?

Brady's Legacy

October 10th, 2018 at 1:43 PM ^

Long time reader but first time posting. This compelled me. 

All the best in your efforts to improve your health. I've really enjoyed all of your content and I am happy to contribute with a donation.

 

Clarence Boddicker

October 11th, 2018 at 12:27 PM ^

I can't donate at the moment--the adjunct budget is tight this month--but will when I can. I have absolutely enjoyed and valued your work here and the spirit you bring. Thank you so much--my best wishes for your recovery.

MaizeJacket

October 12th, 2018 at 11:31 PM ^

Man, full disclosure, I'm just now getting to this, and legit this made me shed a tear or two.  I was lucky enough to meet Ace via David a couple of times and the man is as sincere and personable/relatable off air and offsite as he appears.  From what I read, it sounds like the Michigan community represents the bulk of what he's got left.  It does my heart good to see the rally behind this cause.

Sit back and relax, Ace.  We've got you.